MADonNA MAKES A MOTHER
Id been wanting to have a child for a really long time, but I wasnt trying, just put it like that, Madonna says. It was one of those weird1 surprises. I was so engrossed2 in making the movie that I wasnt paying attention to my body. I didnt have any symptoms any feelings of fatigue3 or strangeness. I attributed to working too hard.
Later I was tired and Id sometimes feel a bit nau网站优化us, but we were shooting outside and it was 100 degrees [38C] every day and everyone was feeling a bit sick. If I said, I kind of feel sick, the girl doing my make-up would say, I feel sick, too I think the lunch was bad. And Id think, Yeah, lunch must have been bad. I never, ever thought that I was pregnant, It just didnt seem like a viable4 option.
Madonnas pregnancy5 was later confirmed by her doctor in New York, before the Evita cast and crew flew on to Budapest, Hungary, to complete filming. When I finally did find out, it was kind of like, No way! Really? No! Im making a movie right now thats absurd, she recalls, laughing. But then it was like the greatest thing in the world.
She also had an ultrasound. When you take a blood test and they say, Youre pregnant, you just go, Oh and dont feel any different really. But when you see the little baby and its [she indicates a few centimeters between her fingers] then it hits you like a ton of bricks. Its real. I cried when I heard my babys heartbeat. It was the most incredible experience. I fell in love, she says, her eyes literally6 shining with emotion.
Even though she and Evita director Alan Parker decided7 to suppress news of her pregnancy for as long as possible to keep all attention focused on the film, Madonna says her condition actually helped her with her portrayal8 of Eva Peron, who died of cervical cancer in 1952, at the age of 33.
It did add another layer of tension to filming. She admits, because Id be worried that I was on my feet too long or working too many hours. I had lot of dancing to do [Eva was a tango aficionado] until I was about four and a half months. There was a lot of jumping and sometimes I fell and Id think, Ive done it this time, and Id rush to the doctor to make sure everything was okay. I must be built like a tank, because nothing happened.
It made me very protective of myself, and I think that helped my character, because Eva always had a lot of health problems, Problems with haemorrhaging she had really heavy periods and things like that. And when she found out she had cervical cancer, she hid it form people for a long time. I think she was very protective over that part of her body, Madonna says, enfolding her tummy, and so I used that. I easily could imagine being more frail9, wanting badly to protect this part of my body, That feeling of being vulnerable.
Madonnas pregnancy has been smooth. Ive never been sick, just more tired than usual. Ive been really lucky, I have to say, she reports, rapping on the table beside her. Touch wood ! She pauses to sip10 a frothy iced coffee from a plastic tumbler.
Instead, I just feel I dont fit into spaces anymore, and its getting harder to put my shoes on. I bent11 over to put my shoe on the other day and fell off the bench. I thought to myself, This is really going to bumble me.
Some days I wake up and feel like a million bucks12; theres a life growing inside me and Im the luckiest person in the and Im the luckiest person in the world. And then other days I get up and just go, Uggghhh.Im a fat pig, Im as big as a whale. I took in my closet and I just cant find anything to wear.
Its difficult when youre used to being really fit and agile13, having an enormous amount of energy and strength and a really flat stomach. Its difficult when suddenly you have to surrender your body, and its a very good lesson for me.
Its given me license14 to relax in a way that I never really allowed myself to . And, you know, deep in my heart its all very good for me. Its good for me to have to deal with all these changes. Its going to be good for me to have the baby and have fat and then have to get rid of it.
很长时间以来我就想要个孩子，但并没刻意去要，只不过顺其自然，麦当娜说：那是种异样的开心。当时我正专注于拍电影，并没在乎身体的变化。我没任何预兆 我从未感觉疲劳或不适。我工作得太投入了。
后来我感觉疲劳而且时常有点儿恶心，但当时大家在室外拍摄，天天温度高达100华氏（38摄氏度），大伙都感觉恶心。如果我说，我感觉有点儿难受，给我化妆的女生就会说：我也难受 八成是午餐变质了，于是我就感觉，对，肯定是午饭坏了。我从未想过我怀孕了。我看起来不大可能。
后来在《埃维塔》一片的角色和剧组职员筹备飞往匈牙利布达佩斯完成拍摄前，麦当娜在纽约的医生证实了她的妊娠。当我最后认定时，确实有点象，不可以，真的？不！我正在拍电影，这太荒谬了，她笑着回忆道。可随之这件事仿佛又成了天底下最了不起的事。
她也做了超声波检查。当你验血时他们说，你怀孕了，你不需要管它， 哦，没什么了不起的。可当你看到了孩子子而那是个[她用两个指头比划着几厘米]，那时它就好似重石捶胸。真的。当听到小宝贝的心跳动时我哭了。那是最非凡的体验。我坠入爱河了，她说着，眼睛闪着激动的光。
尽管她与《埃维塔》的导演艾伦派克决定封锁她怀孕的消息并尽量久地将精力集中在影片上，麦当娜说她的情况的确能够帮助她去更好地刻画爱娃庇隆重的形象，爱娃1952年死于子宫颈癌，年仅33岁。
这的确给拍摄增添了一层紧张氛围， 她承认道，由于我担忧站立的时间太长或工作过久。我得常常跳舞[爱娃是个探戈的舞迷]一直到怀孕四个半月的时候才不跳了。那时常常跳来跳去，有时会摔倒并且还在想，我这次又摔跤了，然后就跑到医生那儿看看有没事。我身体肯定像坦克，要不然如何一点事也没呢。
怀孕使我很注意保护自己，同时我想这也能够帮助我扮演的角色，由于爱娃的身体总不怎么样。她患过大出血与诸这样类的问题 经期时曾非常紧急。当她得知她患有子宫颈癌时，将此事隐瞒了许久，我想她肯定很注意保护身体的那个部位， 麦当娜捂着肚子说，所以我也就那样。我比较容易想象我们的身体比爱娃更虚弱，急切需要保护自己身体的这个部位。那种脆弱的感觉真让人很难想象。
麦当娜的妊娠期较为顺利。我从未感到恶心，只不过感觉比平时累点我儿。我承认，自己真的非常幸运她叩击着身旁的桌子说：避避邪！她停下来呷了一口塑料杯里浮满泡沫的冰镇咖啡。
我只不过感觉发胖了，鞋子非常难穿了。有一天我弯腰穿鞋时从凳子上摔了下来。我心里想：这真的是要我难堪。
有时我醒来感觉像个大款；体内生命的蠕动使我感觉自己是全世界最走运的人。而有时下地走一走，哈哈我是头肥猪，大得象只鲸鱼。看看衣柜里，我找不到合身的衣服。
你平常苗条灵活，精力充沛，这下子可难了。你忽然间要听从身体的摆布，这对我是个非常好的教训。
